Prayers in fear


I am writing these lines and my stomach is still burning. 

Anxiety? Stress? Panic?


No idea, just that crazy thought that burns below the plexus.


I've never been one caring for myself, always looking for others.

Other needs, Others love, others well being and now here I am in front myself, taking words actions, standing for my needs. 

And yet it blew be for, nowhere!


I've never standed really for myself, I've always expected others to protect me, to love me, to raise me up like I was a child who still needs to be followed